July 10, 2009

Looking back


5 years ago today we buried that sweet little baby. As I write this I can remember the moment so clearly it is as if I could step into the moment again. I remember wanting to stop them from lowering him in the hole. I just wanted to grab that box and hold that chubby little guy, and kiss those cheeks one more time. I knew then, and still know, that he wasn't in that little body anymore anyway. I knew he was in the hands of our loving Father. But, the human side of me wanted to hang on just a little bit longer. It was the most difficult day of my life and yet there was so much joy in feeling so close to heaven I could almost touch it.

I looked at my other post today and am so thankful for the Lord's many blessing in our lives. We have not one but two sweet babies to play with, kiss and hold right now, and three amazing boys to wrestle, read to and snuggle with. God is so good, whether we had all that or not, He would still be good. And so today, I am thankful.

5 comments:

Joy said...

There are so many moments from that week that are clearly etched in the hearts of so many people.

jillian said...

Oh Kim,

There just aren't words for times or reflections like this. I'm so blessed by your example of praise during grief... Yes- praise, PRAISE to our God. Praise him for delighting in your sweet boy like he is right now and for carrying you all through it like he does...

Susan said...

Praising God with you for the wonderful blessings He has given you, remembering the day/week as well and marveling at God's provision then and now. love you guys,mom

Movers4life said...

Kim thanks for sharing from your heart! You both are an amazing testament to the love and grace of Christ-love you guys!

Stacie@HobbitDoor said...

Thanks for sharing, Kim! I remember how hard that day and all the days around it were. I'm praising God for all the blessings He has given you. I am also praying for continuing comfort and peace. We love you guys!